I came across this in Brennan Manning's The Signature of Jesus yesterday. It was something that i needed to here. It is something i hope i can say at some point in my life. This was his friends last entry in his journal before he was found dead in his appartment in a Perisian slum..

"All that is not the love of God has no meaning for me. I can truthfally say that I have no interest in anything but the love of God which is in Christ Jesus. If God wants it to, my life will be useful though my word and witness. If he wants, my life will bear fruit through my prayers and sacrifices. But the usefulness of my life is his concern, not mine. It would be indecent of me to worry about that."